Diary of an Introvert

  A lot has went by in this past week and i never got the time to sit back and reflect on it. Now at 6:36 am in the morning Pakistani time it hits me that i am my own reason who's been a barrier towards my eternal peace.  Giving my steering of life in the hands of a wrong person, and accepting i am worth this because the trauma bond is not letting us move forward and I am also somewhat responsible for his bad health as i have been triggering his emotions in the most abusive ways.  After coming into this relationship i have lost a part of my personality that did not needed to please in order to be seen and i have my fair share of lies too but i have been a hypocrite in order to be superior to him and somewhere this guilt is eating me alive that every time i have to superficial and be the most pretentious person in front of him. I have to act in a certain way to show him of how much deserving i am and without this fake façade he wouldn't accept me.  I am not the same a...

 Confessions and promises she made in the past went in vain, Because she kept coming back to the person, she wasn't ready to accept the first time she doubted his actions. Gave him multiple chances poured her heart for him. Allowed him to disrespect her several times and most recently as well.  Knew within herself that he was not good for her, had all the reasons to end but something within her was so afraid to let him go. She allowed him to abuse her emotionally to such extreme levels that she was blinded to tell any difference between wrong or right. Love is kind and patient and endures every storm with this hope she hanged onto their bond but the honest truth is actually the reality of acceptance and knowing how the other person makes you feel. If without them you feel empty and with them you still feel the same than you're severely damaging your self-esteem and knowing all this still she was deep sea diving in hopes someday the sails would be easy. Read quotes, preached ot...

  “Our bodies move together To the rhythm of this night Glistening with the stars in the sky  You whisper closely as our love brews in the mid-summer so high  Bare skin, passion wildering intensely Watching you watching me desires increasing immensely Love catches fire in our hearts Waiting to unleash the sparks that arched Bend me over, do as you please I crave for your touch, your warmth so sweet To continue our kisses that keep me heavenly blissed”.  

 Overwhelmed by my anxiety The past is not securing away in my memories Wishing so hard to let it go Heard inspirational quotes when the dark wind blows Whispering my cries in the air It becomes toxic every night my dear To torture myself by the pain that doesn't seems to vanish soon We are complex, we are complicated Sometimes we just need to pull each other through So many emotions are surfing and  We're a mess when the tides are crushing We considered each other the source of our delicate vulnerabilities  The hurt that comes along when I reminisce over your infidelities I still try to understand your point of view As your sweetest actions still keep me glued Should I allow you redemption ? Or should I free myself from this perception To keep my believe and heal our love to reignite the light of affection !!

 Let's talk express your best advice on how to have a healthy relationship and comment down below how to move past from a toxic person.  #feelfreetoexpress

 We who love with all our hearts are not foolish because we openly welcome people who take are kindness for granted. Thinking we are the weak because we tend to think emotionally and are in fear of abandonment. But let me tell you one secret we are indeed the strongest because we don't hide our vulnerabilities , we love with all our might and amend the everything just to be with our person.  Shame on those who mistake our humbleness for our weakness because they are the one's broken deep from within betraying our trust and hoping on from one leave to another. We gave all when we dwell in a relationship but hurt us once and you'll see our thorns . Because we don't beg or cling we just leave in silence and the person who betrayed such a beautiful love would regret loosing someone like us #nomoretears

  We can never stop comparing ourselves. We humans are the epitome of complexes that we built and introduce in our surroundings. why can we be simpler and just keep ourselves satisfied with whatever we have, whatever we own.  Beauty, wealth, education even our happiness is on stake when it comes to comparison. Instead of being compassionate and humble we indulge ourselves in frustration and a battle to win past our frenemies. Just be yourselves, do what your heart desires because we only got this life, I know it's cliché to say but we have wasted a whole lot of time judging and living according to what others deem fit. You know best what you want stop focusing on things that bring you down. Rise from these negativities and you'll see the flow of energies brightening your heart and soul #comparisonkills#positivemindset#befreeyoudoyou !!