Dear Mr. Monster !! You came in my life unexpectedly. Gave me hopes and made me feel like I am the only girl in the world for you. Time and again we fought, sometimes you pushed me away sometimes i pushed you away. All i ever wanted was for you to never leave me and you promised too. I was falling in love with you everyday, You consumed my energies with your manipulative ways. I always asked you Am I not enough for you. You said Babe, you're the one who owns me, you know my heart I am all yours. I felt for your every word. I put you first in every thing that occurred. I ignored the red flags because I was blind sided by your love. No my Man is fighting his way through for me. He will stand his ground for me. My friends and family were stopping me not to fall for a Monster like you because you ripped my heart right through. Countless efforts I did for you, shredded my self respect in pieces for you. Believed you with all my heart oh God was I fool for you. Toxicity an...
2022 has been the most amazing year, it made me realize a number of things. Opened my eyes to the abuse i was blind to see and acknowledge. I promised myself when i entered 2022, i would not indulge or be involved in anything that makes me lose my self worth, is dangerous to my mental health. But i failed miserably and ended up getting my heart and my mind crushing. Not only i lost the dream or should i say an illusion of an image i was holding onto but i believe God needed me to see my worth and made me understand how i can restore my peace by just letting go. I preached in my blogs but i felt like an hypocrite as i never actually implemented the same on my life. I was miserable, suffocated and toxic to the brim being in a relationship where i adapted to being a pleaser and was always giving thinking in anything and everything would show the other person to love me more. All in all i was losing myself, i hated the person i was becoming and always questione...
The real me is shy, awkward and hell lot emotional, but why do I hide the real me and pretend to be someone I am not, wearing this fake façade of masks. Always questioning myself come out break those walls show everyone the real you maybe they'll like you a lot more. Scares on my face blemishes that I hide away with concealer, concealing my thoughts as well. Why we pretend to be some one we're not, why can't we be the way we actual exists in our soul's, why we shape ourselves and mold our individualities, sexualities according to what other's want from us. I don't wish to hide my scares with products that I cannot even spell but with each morning I clean my face and then wear the same paint because my fear is what if some one notices me without this art and I go unrecognizable. This is what are mindsets have engineered that makeup is a necessity for women to cover up their flaws. Beauty standards are changing, evolving but yet we lack behind and that's why m...
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