Healed and Whole: Rising


 There were days where i couldn’t smile

I had lost my ability to shine

I allowed a thief like you to break me 

And see by letting my guard down

I not only ruined my body, But injured my soul for four long years

I cried, i begged and played all my cards to win you back

Oh, so naive i was for your mere attention i would go deep and beyond

The girl in me died when she changed her morales for you

I was just another pit stop till you chose that was meant for you

But i am glad that i am no longer that person

I have grown as an individual and you’ve been my best motivator

I am more secure, the love that i yearned for found me and believe me it was the magic that i was searching for.



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