Heartbreak, processing the grief !

 "Heart aches as if it stopped beating, my body is numb unresponsive to the outside world.

I am present but my senses are not helping me out, my soul searches for you in despair. 

Though i always knew we weren't meant to be. But i kept believing and never let go completely.

Now, i am devasted as the only hope that kept me alive is gone forever. You didn't even uttered a word

and it feels, i am the monster who turned you down. Can you hold me for one last ride, so i can say 

goodbye in peace, while i dwell in your arms and my tears dry out insanely ". Sana Bhatti