Courage and Faith

 There was a time I was heavily invested in my own nuisances still I am but over the years I stumbled upon this realization. I was so wrong about so many things. 

The pain that I was running from gave me so much courage and the faith I kept within me to withstand the test of times not only proved me right but the fruit my patience bared was not only fruitful but there was a change that sparked within me. 

I use to think when will there will be a time I would drive my own car and feel the air on my face. But all of a sudden I was driving, got the desired job I was always praying for. Being my best self and not thanking God enough. 

Always crying and asking God for  one thing and forgetting His numerous blessings that He bestowed over the years. I became so blinded by my own selfish desires, perplexed by the insecurity of wanting to be with the one I loved so much even though pondering upon the lies that were right there still I kept asking the Lord for him to make me his and he forever mine. But I was so foolish and the Lord knew my heart the pain and patience and the strength that the Almighty gave was unmatchable. 

I don't regret the mistakes I made these were bound to happen, if I hadn't made those errors would I have learned what I know now, would my faith be ever strong. My mother is my strength she never for once stopped believing in me, my father whose trust gave me wings to overcome any difficulty and my parents love made me realize how wrong I was to chase something that was so bitter for me. 

It's always been me who had the motivation between wasn't searching well. The time and the blessings all come along it's our faith and trust throughout the process that gives us the courage to muster any difficulty. We just need to eliminate the toxicity and embrace the pain and remember the one's that were always there.