Diary of an Introvert

 In recent years, conversations around workplace equity have gained momentum, yet one area continues to expose deep-rooted biases: the treatment of pregnant working women. What should be a phase of support and care is often overshadowed by scrutiny, rigid expectations, and subtle exclusion. It raises an uncomfortable but necessary question why is pregnancy still treated as a professional inconvenience rather than a natural part of life? In many organizations, particularly in Pakistan, women face implicit and explicit biases even before they are hired. Married candidates are frequently questioned about their family planning intentions an inquiry that not only invades personal boundaries but also reflects an underlying assumption that a woman’s commitment to her career is conditional. This practice is not only ethically questionable but also contradicts the principles of equal employment opportunity. Legally, Pakistan has made progress in protecting working women through maternity-...

  It’s been a while since I last wrote—nothing quite moved me, nothing stirred enough motivation. Illness slowed me down, and in that stillness, I found myself drifting into a kind of laziness that wasn’t just physical, but emotional too. Then I came across a thought that stayed with me: Hope is far more difficult than patience. We learn patience for things we can see coming—things that are already on our path. But hope? Hope is for the unseen. It’s for the dreams we hold onto, even when there’s no certainty they’ll ever arrive. It asks us to believe without proof, to stay soft in a world that often demands hard evidence. Over time, I’ve realized that our emotions are not obstacles—they are teachers. ·         Anxiety points toward the parts of us that need acceptance and healing. ·         Jealousy quietly reveals where we long to be. ·         Anger marks the boun...

  People say all kinds of things about Karachi and honestly, I never really bought into it. Sure, we’re all out here hustling, surviving this wild economy, always on our toes. But today… Karachi reminded me who she really is. So, picture this: I’m out driving, vibing and boom, my car breaks down. Not once, but twice. I somehow roll up to the nearest traffic police station, fully expecting a “good luck with that” situation. But instead? The officer helps me. Calls a mechanic. Sorts everything out. And neither of them tried to rip me off in fact, the officer made sure I got a fair price. Now here’s the part that gave me goosebumps: I’m a Christian. The officer was Muslim. The mechanic was Hindu. No labels, no bias — just three people from three faiths coming together to help a fellow human. This is the Karachi I know and love messy, chaotic, generous, diverse, and full of heart. The city of lights, biryani, breakdowns, and big-hearted people. Long story short: kindness still exists....

  In my thirties now, and oh what a phase, Trading wild nights for calmer days. Yes, I’m aging laugh lines grow, But with them comes a lovely glow. I’ve found my voice, I’ve drawn my line, I say “no thanks” and still feel fine. No more chasing what won’t stay, If it brings no joy, I walk away. A concert? Yes, but make it solo, Just me, my tunes, a private show though. Dancing barefoot, water in hand, In my cozy, cluttered, quiet land. I’m married now, and peace is gold, We argue ‘bout the thermostat but behold! That kind of love, it grows with time, In matching sweats, we feel sublime. No FOMO here, I’m out the door By sunset back by half-past four I get it now those parental fears, Their wisdom echoes through the years. Becoming Mom? I see it clear, The apron, sighs, and all that cheer. And honestly, it’s not that bad Being “mature” is kind of rad. So here’s to rest and herbal tea, And knowing just who I want to be Thirty-something, wise and free ...

 Lately I've learned life's a mystery deep,
Too wild to predict, too fragile to keep.
No use in regrets or fearing what's near,
The moment is now—be present, sincere. Each morning I rise, I silently pray,
Grateful my feet touch the ground today.
Humble in heart, with peace as my guide,
I walk through the storm, with love by my side. Let things just flow, let kindness be shown,
Forgive and release all the hurt I’ve known.
Love with no limits, give all I can give,
For this is the only true way to live. Don’t act like another, don’t play a part,
Stop the comparing—it breaks the heart.
Each breath’s a blessing, each moment a chance,
To break from the numbness and truly dance. The world is aching, the skies are gray,
Not by nukes—but worry eats us away.
We build up walls, then tear down trust,
Chasing tomorrows that turn into dust. We witness war, see children cry,
Nations fall under a blood-red sky.
What are we doing? Where is the grace?
We've made a mess of this sacred pla...

  I am a blessing, sent from the skies,
The spark in your soul, the truth in your eyes.
I am your daughter, your blood, your light,
Your savior who rises through every night. I birthed the stars, the moon, the sea,
The echo of life flows through me.
God hears my prayers, both loud and low,
God made me equal this I know. Never your servant, nor your slave,
But a favor from Heaven, divinely brave.
Yet when I say NO, I’m met with death,
Silenced still with every breath. I bite my tongue, I hide my pain,
But storms are building in my vein.
Enough! I roar, I've cried too long,
My silence was mistaken for being wrong. If I choose to pray for your downfall's day,
You’d vanish like dust, swept away.
If I can turn the world around,
Imagine the strength where I'm truly unbound. A miracle born, a soul so grand,
A savior shaped by God’s own hand.
I am a woman, grace and might,
A sacred flame, eternal light. Don’t take me lightly, don’t dismiss,
I’m more than pain, more than this.
No lo...

  I know now what love feels like It’s calm, it’s steady, never spike. A gentle hand, a steady flame, That shows up daily, just the same. It isn’t selfish, full of doubt, It doesn’t scream or shut you out. It’s patient through the storms and pain, A quiet trust that will remain. It takes some time, it needs to grow, With space to breathe, and room to flow. It’s healing wounds we used to hide, And standing softly by your side. It’s knowing, deep within your soul, That being you is always whole. No need to change, no mask to wear  Real love is simply being there ☘️

  A recent thought crossed my mind as I revisited my Counselling Practices lectures. I've been journaling and realized that after 31 years, I’ve been giving so much power to the opinions of my friends and family, letting them critique me without considering my own worth. It's okay to receive constructive criticism it helps us grow. A fresh perspective can guide us and calm us during times of anxiety. But somewhere along the way, we’ve forgotten that words of affirmation, appreciation, and acknowledgment of someone's efforts can truly make a difference. For years, I hoped my friends would offer this, but instead, I encountered some who would devalue and mock my work, even telling me to my face, "This seems like a joke," when others praised it. It’s as though they never wanted people to see how good I could be. I’ve always lived by the motto “live and let others live,” without being manipulative or meddling in other people's business. But here’s the truth: a...

  I hope this message finds you all well. It's been a while since my last article, and I have to admit, life has been quite the whirlwind. I've been busy folding, wrapping, twisting, and tidying up this new phase of my life. Ms. Sana Bhatti is no longer a "Miss," but a "Mrs." Growing up in Pakistan, it's every parent's dream to see their daughter transition from a single woman to a wife. It's a beautiful milestone, and yet, it comes with its own set of lessons and challenges. Marriage is not just about learning the other person; it’s also a journey of self-discovery. It teaches you so much about your own boundaries, desires, and how to merge your world with someone else's. Understanding and accepting an entire human being who will be by your side 24/7 can feel both daunting and exhilarating. While I strongly believe in taking time to settle into this new chapter, let's also acknowledge that we, as humans, crave companionship and emotional...

In a world where illusions dance and perceptions wane, Where innocence is buried beneath the crimson stain, We wander lost, strangers in our own reflection, Perhaps our sins have bloomed, birthing this dark intersection.   I hunger, I'm homeless, yearning for love's gentle embrace, Oh, Lord, pardon my kin, lost in their heartless chase. Bless those mourning, their dear ones torn away, In the cruel tides of hate, where compassion's price we pay.   This land, not mine, and in death, my legacy, the good I've sown, Yet my brethren have turned, hearts like stone. Guide them, O Maker, towards redemption's light, May understanding bloom, dispelling the endless night.   As I depart, I dream of a haven anew, Where kindness reigns and care is true, For my eyes have witnessed, my heart endured, In this tapestry of life, where love's essence is assured.  

In the intricate tapestry of my mind, I often find myself caught between the peaks of boundless passion and the depths of profound lethargy. There are moments when I soar to the heights of an extremist, envisioning myself scaling mountains and exploring the unseen wonders of underwater realms. Yet, just as swiftly, I plummet into the abyss of procrastination, where even the thought of rising from my bed feels like an insurmountable task. Within the confines of my own thoughts, I feel entangled, a prisoner of my own complexity. It's as though I am trapped in a constant whirlwind of emotions, unable to find the stability I crave. The desire to share these turbulent thoughts with my loved ones is ever-present, yet the fear of being misunderstood, of not having my feelings validated, keeps me silent. In these moments, I yearn for someone to simply sit beside me, to gaze into the depths of my soul with an open heart and without judgment. I crave a love that transcends logic, a love that...

 There were days where i couldn’t smile I had lost my ability to shine I allowed a thief like you to break me  And see by letting my guard down I not only ruined my body, But injured my soul for four long years I cried, i begged and played all my cards to win you back Oh, so naive i was for your mere attention i would go deep and beyond The girl in me died when she changed her morales for you I was just another pit stop till you chose that was meant for you But i am glad that i am no longer that person I have grown as an individual and you’ve been my best motivator I am more secure, the love that i yearned for found me and believe me it was the magic that i was searching for.

  I was chasing something so unknown Afraid to loose it, I held it too close Not knowing it was breaking me everyday, I never for once allowed myself to let go. You found me when I was on my low,  My doubts let loose, when you hold me safely in your arms God's plan was so special, I was blind to recognize such a beautiful union.  Thankyou, for being my forever, Your smile, your sincerity, your unconditional love has melted away my insecurities An amazing grace has filled my heart and only gratitude is flowing You're my sunshine i seek light from in my darkest moments You're my hope and love i longed for so deep. 

  Hello, beautiful souls. It's been a while since my last expression. I saw this verse and upon reading it i felt it in my heart to share with you all. The Lord indeed works in mysterious ways, and there is no doubt our strength comes from the Almighty no matter what the problem is trust His process and He will make sure to get you through. over the years i cried and complained but never gave praises and thanks. But what i am today is because of Him. He has been with me through out and have carried me on eagle wings. The years have been difficult but there was always a way out. As i am writing this i am not sure who needs to hear it; but believe in your prayers and as always trust His process don't interrupt with your doubts and assumptions. Let things flow, you cannot be the master of everything, we are not perfect and the urge we all have to show case our perfectionism is too hefty and burdening. Learn from your mistakes, and move forward and above all try becoming a good hum...

  I always use to dream about travelling with my friends and experiencing the beauty of Pakistan. It all seemed so surreal when the fantasy turned into reality.  I was speechless and felt an amazing sense of gratitude that no matter how and what we plan. God’s timing is always on point, keep patience and keep faith and see how the Almighty unravels His plans for you.  You might be holding onto things, individuals that He wishes for you to eliminate from your life. Trust in Him because the Lord has bigger purpose for you. He saw and listened to things, you never could, He was part of the conversations in which you would suffer. I understand it might be rough but believe in yourself and trust the process. This dream of mine i manifested for years had different plans but i am glad this trip was with my best buddies who mean the world to me @MariamShahid and  Ayesha Aziz  thank you no matter wherever i am in life i am never going to forget these two chipmunks 😁😋....

  Morning, wonderful souls, the month of Feb always brings shine in every human being's eyes as their hearts are filled with love and there's magic in the air. Fantasying like a hopeless romantic but what  can we do we all are a tad bit romantic.  This year celebrate friendship and appreciate your loved one's that were with you all along and never let you drowned.  Through your hardest battles stood firmly, fought every individual that made you feel unworthy and held you in their arms when you cried like a baby.  Soulmates are often friends and the one's that keep you grounded are the one's to be cherished forever.  #happyvalentine'sday #celebratefriendship #loveeverymoment #2023

 As we are moving forward we often forget how lonely we are becoming. We always assume someone has it all but trust me no one knows what goes behind those dark walls.  Please don’t create false perceptions and never judge. Check on your loved one’s and be their hearing aid. Conversations in these times is crucial as we cannot spare time for the one’s we love but pretentious behavior is all we are up for.  Provide support and start by being compassionate. Words can be hurtful just be mindful. I too am learning anger is a very distinctive emotion but as i grow older i am realizing how much we need each other.  #checkonyourpeople #becompassionate #energyhealing #mindfulness #counseling #personaldevelopment #gratitude #love 💜

  Hello beautiful people, welcome to 2023, I know it's a bit late to say Happy New Year folks but after a long break, writing my first ever post is truly exceptional. Firstly, a big heartfelt gratitude to all my readers out there and for appreciating my expressions. The title says it all, often times we pin healing only related to physical being but it has so much more to offer. The past year and the years before that i saw myself going through a downward spiral in life as a part of me was stuck in the superficial realm of becoming someone else, someone who has approval of everyone, someone who is flawless and is doing everything in her power to be accepted. Trust me when i say this it burnt me, it was exhausting to put up an act that wasn't true. The Sana i know has flaws, she appreciates honesty and dislikes being fake but i couldn't help but fall back into the same patterns, same mindset of portraying someone who knows it all. I could see similarity in my actions, i coul...