Diary of an Introvert

  Hello beautiful people, welcome to 2023, I know it's a bit late to say Happy New Year folks but after a long break, writing my first ever post is truly exceptional. Firstly, a big heartfelt gratitude to all my readers out there and for appreciating my expressions. The title says it all, often times we pin healing only related to physical being but it has so much more to offer. The past year and the years before that i saw myself going through a downward spiral in life as a part of me was stuck in the superficial realm of becoming someone else, someone who has approval of everyone, someone who is flawless and is doing everything in her power to be accepted. Trust me when i say this it burnt me, it was exhausting to put up an act that wasn't true. The Sana i know has flaws, she appreciates honesty and dislikes being fake but i couldn't help but fall back into the same patterns, same mindset of portraying someone who knows it all. I could see similarity in my actions, i coul...

 2022 has been the most amazing year, it made me realize a number of things. Opened my eyes to the abuse i was blind to see and acknowledge.  I promised myself when i entered 2022, i would not indulge or be involved in anything that makes me lose my self worth, is dangerous to my mental health. But i failed miserably and ended up getting my heart and my mind crushing.  Not only i lost the dream or should i say an illusion of an image i was holding onto but i believe God needed me to see my worth and made me understand how i can restore my peace by just letting go.  I preached in my blogs but i felt like an hypocrite as i never actually implemented the same on my life. I was miserable, suffocated and toxic to the brim being in a relationship where i adapted to being a pleaser and was always giving thinking in anything and everything would show the other person to love me more.  All in all i was losing myself, i hated the person i was becoming and always questione...

  Growing up in a South Asian household our mother's, grandmothers always taught us one thing you need to be poised and proper for you to be accepted by a man. A house is made home by a female because she has the responsibility to protect the dignity and guide her man to conquer the world. A woman should always be ready to compromise, never to question and always be positive about all the negative things that surround her as she needs to keep herself calm and collected for her man. She cannot raise her voice, nor be expressive about her needs, because it's the male who works so diligently and in the evening needs sanity while you my dear are advised to keep the house warm and prepare a feast to serve and make him happy. Because, females are entitled to keep a good environment where the marriage grows, and the kids learn so much from their mothers. Even when the kids rebel it's the fault of the mothers teachings, so my dear always adjust and be good. I believed that teaching...