Diary of an Introvert

 I have not been myself completely over the past one year, and to speak the truth I knew exactly what mistakes I am doing and even knew by heart what I can do to avoid those mistakes. But, still apart of me drifted away and wanted to swing by the person I dearly thought was in love with me.  I know he did care, still does but our relationship ended on a rocky path because somehow he got conflicted between his family and his love or he decided to make the choice that was far easier for him. A break up was normal, we could've have both stopped talking, but the attachment the endlessness' to be closer to one another never really separated us.  He got engaged and I felt like thousands of steel knives stabbed my heart all at once. Betrayal, loss of appetite, loss of everything was the only feeling I felt. My tears wouldn't stop, I opened my heart to my mother and cried like a baby and hugged her so tightly and I still remember never wanting to leave her because at that very mo...

 I know you feel bad, I could feel your tears, sense the pain in your voice. But, still there is no remorse no change in your actions. You pretend that you're apologizing, your pretentious act of care is for granted. But what amends are you making to resolve the conflict and change yourself.  

  In the midst of my worries. I tend to forget the only people that truly lift my spirit up back.  My fam, the one's that loved me no matter what ever mistake I make, no matter where ever I am they are always holding me back. They are the one's always keeping me grounded. Thank you for this wonderful night, thank you for all the times I wasn't myself but you guys loved me wholeheartedly, thank you for always believing in your daughter and giving her the courage to feel free.  Blessed to be born in such a warm and big hearted fam.  Love you people 

 create and learn to enjoy little moments in life because these are the joys that help you escape from all the craziness. Indulge yourself in healthy productive activities. Because you can only heal your inner self. 

 Feels good, crying over you made me realize the moments I was blind to see. Ignoring the love of the one's that actually care for me. You showed your ass and I am glad for that because it's true I needed to hate you to love me. 

 As an Asian girl. I have always heard this phrase marry before 25 otherwise you're an expires item. My parents worry and are always searching for a suitable mate. I am happy and feel blessed with everything I have accomplished and still I have a long way to my go and getting married is not an accomplishment. I am not against marriage, but the constant idea that daughters should be married off as soon as possible needs to be changed. 

 Admitting you were the failure of me has finally lifted my soul. I feel sane again #Sanity 

 The meaning of love I understood from you. You shine my world like no other. In my darkest hours, you're the only light I seek. I have learned so much from you and still am learning. I love you Mama #Mother's day 

 log kiya kaheinge has ruined so many dreams. log tou kaha kr bhul jayein ge. Pr regret hamesha humein hae hoga l logo k darr se apni dreams, apni wishes fulfill nahi kr skhe.  Be brave and leave the world to its own. Because at the end of the day what truly matters is your peace of mind and your hearts content. #logkiyakaheingecholaychepao #Noexcuses #Noregrets

  This forever will be a wish in my heart to see you waiting for me as i walk down the aisle to be one in Holy Matrimony. To be yours one and truly. But, God had different plans He gave you multiple chances to set the truth free you ignored our loved and moved on leaving me depressed and complexed i was so broken i use to doubt myself maybe i am wrong, what have i done, what is my mistake that you gave up on us so easily. Questioned my looks, my self esteemed went downhill. I started doubting myself and was unable to make decision i judged my judgements and Lord knows still kept my faith in you hoping you’ll fight the universe for me. I cried a river for you shed tears of blood while praying begging God to make us one. I know, you’ll be marrying someone else, this year or soon my wish is going to be fulfilled by someone else. I am preparing myself for this acceptance and finally thanking my Lord that i saw the real you. The real you who is a coward, the real you who is not worthy t...