Diary of an Introvert

In a world where illusions dance and perceptions wane, Where innocence is buried beneath the crimson stain, We wander lost, strangers in our own reflection, Perhaps our sins have bloomed, birthing this dark intersection.   I hunger, I'm homeless, yearning for love's gentle embrace, Oh, Lord, pardon my kin, lost in their heartless chase. Bless those mourning, their dear ones torn away, In the cruel tides of hate, where compassion's price we pay.   This land, not mine, and in death, my legacy, the good I've sown, Yet my brethren have turned, hearts like stone. Guide them, O Maker, towards redemption's light, May understanding bloom, dispelling the endless night.   As I depart, I dream of a haven anew, Where kindness reigns and care is true, For my eyes have witnessed, my heart endured, In this tapestry of life, where love's essence is assured.  

In the intricate tapestry of my mind, I often find myself caught between the peaks of boundless passion and the depths of profound lethargy. There are moments when I soar to the heights of an extremist, envisioning myself scaling mountains and exploring the unseen wonders of underwater realms. Yet, just as swiftly, I plummet into the abyss of procrastination, where even the thought of rising from my bed feels like an insurmountable task. Within the confines of my own thoughts, I feel entangled, a prisoner of my own complexity. It's as though I am trapped in a constant whirlwind of emotions, unable to find the stability I crave. The desire to share these turbulent thoughts with my loved ones is ever-present, yet the fear of being misunderstood, of not having my feelings validated, keeps me silent. In these moments, I yearn for someone to simply sit beside me, to gaze into the depths of my soul with an open heart and without judgment. I crave a love that transcends logic, a love that...

 There were days where i couldn’t smile I had lost my ability to shine I allowed a thief like you to break me  And see by letting my guard down I not only ruined my body, But injured my soul for four long years I cried, i begged and played all my cards to win you back Oh, so naive i was for your mere attention i would go deep and beyond The girl in me died when she changed her morales for you I was just another pit stop till you chose that was meant for you But i am glad that i am no longer that person I have grown as an individual and you’ve been my best motivator I am more secure, the love that i yearned for found me and believe me it was the magic that i was searching for.

  I was chasing something so unknown Afraid to loose it, I held it too close Not knowing it was breaking me everyday, I never for once allowed myself to let go. You found me when I was on my low,  My doubts let loose, when you hold me safely in your arms God's plan was so special, I was blind to recognize such a beautiful union.  Thankyou, for being my forever, Your smile, your sincerity, your unconditional love has melted away my insecurities An amazing grace has filled my heart and only gratitude is flowing You're my sunshine i seek light from in my darkest moments You're my hope and love i longed for so deep. 

  Hello, beautiful souls. It's been a while since my last expression. I saw this verse and upon reading it i felt it in my heart to share with you all. The Lord indeed works in mysterious ways, and there is no doubt our strength comes from the Almighty no matter what the problem is trust His process and He will make sure to get you through. over the years i cried and complained but never gave praises and thanks. But what i am today is because of Him. He has been with me through out and have carried me on eagle wings. The years have been difficult but there was always a way out. As i am writing this i am not sure who needs to hear it; but believe in your prayers and as always trust His process don't interrupt with your doubts and assumptions. Let things flow, you cannot be the master of everything, we are not perfect and the urge we all have to show case our perfectionism is too hefty and burdening. Learn from your mistakes, and move forward and above all try becoming a good hum...

  I always use to dream about travelling with my friends and experiencing the beauty of Pakistan. It all seemed so surreal when the fantasy turned into reality.  I was speechless and felt an amazing sense of gratitude that no matter how and what we plan. God’s timing is always on point, keep patience and keep faith and see how the Almighty unravels His plans for you.  You might be holding onto things, individuals that He wishes for you to eliminate from your life. Trust in Him because the Lord has bigger purpose for you. He saw and listened to things, you never could, He was part of the conversations in which you would suffer. I understand it might be rough but believe in yourself and trust the process. This dream of mine i manifested for years had different plans but i am glad this trip was with my best buddies who mean the world to me @MariamShahid and  Ayesha Aziz  thank you no matter wherever i am in life i am never going to forget these two chipmunks 😁😋....

  Morning, wonderful souls, the month of Feb always brings shine in every human being's eyes as their hearts are filled with love and there's magic in the air. Fantasying like a hopeless romantic but what  can we do we all are a tad bit romantic.  This year celebrate friendship and appreciate your loved one's that were with you all along and never let you drowned.  Through your hardest battles stood firmly, fought every individual that made you feel unworthy and held you in their arms when you cried like a baby.  Soulmates are often friends and the one's that keep you grounded are the one's to be cherished forever.  #happyvalentine'sday #celebratefriendship #loveeverymoment #2023