Diary of an Introvert

  Lately, I have been so consumed with work and stress. Throughout the whole period I felt anxious and a trembling uneasiness within my body. Super worried about things that weren't in my control. To be honest I am a worrier and a rescuer but at times we need to analyze our own patterns of how we indulge in toxicated behaviors to overcome our nervousness. Few grounding techniques that I learnt during my certification helped me to calm my senses and work through those difficult factors at my own pace.  Starting off whenever I feel something within me is disturbed taking a deep breath and acknowledging the sense of visibility I quickly name out loud five things that I see around me. Henceforth, putting and shifting my concentration towards the nearest items. Furthermore, in continuation of the process to ease my nerves I acknowledge the sense of touch and placing my hands on the five things that I recalled earlier. In addition to this using my sense of hearing acknowledging the ...

 "Last night I had a dream, You were the main course while I was the dessert In dreams nothing seems stressful Yet, when reality hits I am all dreadful Over the course of these four long years Tremendous breakdowns and patches reappeared But, the sense of belonging always felt so strong with You Fears and comforts all wrapped around You One glance of your face makes all the worries go away The miseries are lost in your eyes If this isn't love then I never wish to be so high ".

  I have stopped watching Pakistani television a long time back reason being the audacity to portray people of color is such a bad light. I was scrolling through the You Tube application when I came across this image. Upon, further research I came to know it’s one of the popular drama series on Ary Digital and I was immediately sickening to my core. The practice to paint the faces of fair complexion actors and actresses to show a person of color is morally and ethically disrespectful. Our industry has so many beautiful and talented colored models and actors why can't our directors cast them for these roles. Earlier, this same routine was displayed in Hum Tv most popular drama serial "Parizaad" the drama itself was exceptional at least this is what I heard but the mere glance of the actor willingly painting his face in order to portray the person of color was a disgraceful sight to me and I didn't even render upon the thought to even watch any episodes of the show. ...