Stop Abusing me !!

 






All I ever give is love, Love is the one excepted out of me

I am the one who brings you forth, Bearing the pain of labor

To usher a life in this world. A human who you will grow to rape me for decades

And feel no shame to do this sin over and over again.

In matrimony you cannot hear my screams

My “NO “seems a YES to You. Because somewhere I have taught you

A woman’s “NO” means YES. My ancestors sold me for money

My body is not to be worshipped, but to be eaten and lusted over

I was born to be your companion.  God created me to be your equal

Not to be your slave. It’s not my job to wash your dirty dishes

To cook and clean, not my duty to be your provider

Give love and still be treated like a secondary.

People say times have changed. Yes, now you give birth to me and let me live

Still I have certain rules only implemented on me. And these rules continue to develop and grow into societal norms.  That I can never escape from.

If I speak for my rights, I am a rebel and you start disowning me

My choices, my opportunities are so trivial in your eyes

You want me to earn be independent but stay in that same defined stereotypical circle

Because my wings growth might hinder your family’s reputation

Shameless daughter, a sinful sister, an opportunist wife. You pay your blames bill on me

I cannot dress the way I wish because you say I am asking for it, Cover myself in thousand shrines,

Still your evilness is not hidden. But I am to be held accountable

I am the one who has been teaching you wrongly

Telling you to be the man, because man is strong and powerful

Because I search for a dutiful woman for you. And demand her to be everything

A goddess, a mistress, a worker. My roles continually change for you

I open my heart for you. Give my all to see you reach the skies

But my freedom scares you. All I ask for you is to let me be

Let me breath, Stop objectifying me

I am not your toy please stop playing with me

I am the one most horrified by you

Your patriarchal storms have destroyed me enough

Don’t push my limits, Because I have had it enough

I’ll slay and you’ll regret, Because I withhold in me both Zeus and Aphrodite

Just wishing to be unleashed.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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